Right now I'm enjoying some blissful peace and quiet. Everything is going alright here, I'm just doing my thing, praying someone will at least call me for an interview. I figure a job will come to me somehow, especially with the holiday hiring season revving up. I know that if I get a temp holiday gig, that's better than nothing. If I get more right away, that's great too. I'll give whatever job I get my all, because it will make my efforts look even better at this point. I think the military address might make employers think I'm temporary, when the reality is that the address is temporary but the intention is to build a life out here, to build something somewhere that let's me have my own identity.
I've had quite the time out here already, with a bad sunburn (ouch!) after a lovely day at the beach, and adjusting to the time zone (who knew an hour was so long! lol. my sleeps did!). I've gone for a lot of walks, and a bike ride. I went and hung out at Rachel's, dropped off some jewelry with her to send in a box to RCC. That'll make me a few bucks, but it wasn't much. I need to do more, maybe I'll work on that this weekend. Hooray! That's when I know I'm at home - wherever I set up my jewelry stuff and start creating is where home is to me.
I've had some interesting dreams too, which have left me with simultaneous feelings of excitement and mystery. It depends on what you believe about this type of thing, but basically an friend who's passed away visited me in my dreams and told me everything that's changing is good and I'm brave, and then the biggest part I remember is her telling me I needed to fall in love again. It was a very strange, very real dream.
My dad always says to trust the process, which means to let ourselves find a direction we believe we're supposed to go in and then let God handle it from there. It's good wisdom, but I'm still working on the balance between doing my thing and letting it all take the course it's supposed to. I know it's not saying "just don't do anything and God and sunshine and puppies and happy daisy dreams will take it from there!" It's more of a letting yourself let life lead you and it'll be alright because faith is powerful.
I'm just.....
I'm getting there. With everything. Every day. It's all happening, and I need to let it.
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I like the "trust the process". I am going to borrow that. We are waiting for gabrielle's school pictures to send you a package. Hang in there. Somebody will hire you.
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