but if you try sometimes, you might find, you get what you need...

If you summed up 2011 for me, it would be a year of tremendous change. Of chances taken, of being scared shitless sometimes, of moments of relief, of moments of pure happiness… of just crazy shit. LOL. I’m alive, I’ll be damned. Here’s a bit of “by the numbers” if you will.

In 2011:

30 - age I turned

50 - pounds I lost

Infinite - times I laughed and/or smiled

Countless - tears I cried

1 - times I fell in love

5 - months I was in relationship

Infinite - courage and strength I realized I had

Countless - dogs I bathed and clipped nails on

>15 - friends I made

3 - job interviews

>10 - resumes sent to libraries

1 - semester of U of I completed

2 - short, too short, visits home

1 - new pet (Wilbur!)

Infinite - frustration at my job

0 - concerts I went to (say what!?!)

0 - trips I went on

5 - post secrets I sent

1 - band I love eternally broke up (RIP REM)

Countless - scratches from dogs and cat

2 - bites (one from a little terrier, on from Wilbur)

3 - U of I classes passed

1 - U of I class dropped

Countless - miles I ran

6 - size jeans I fit into now

12 - size jeans I fit into when the year started

Countless - cups of coffee or tea, and gallons of water drank

Countless - conversations with my besties

I could go on and on with this… but you get it. I’ve been busy. I’ve had some amazing shit happen, and some sad shit. I’ve had moments I thought I wouldn’t survive, and times I know I was there just to help other people feel alive. Awesome. Let’s make 2012 worth our whiles people. Let’s make it nothing short of absolutely incredible!