I will miss Steak N Shake, though....

I'm having an emotional week. It's my last week of work, and while the reason for going is totally awesome and I'm ready for a new adventure, the whole "leaving my jobs and my home and not having a job set up yet" part of this is very very scary. It's also very sad to be leaving my coworkers, these people who I have seen all the time for the past however many years. I'm going to miss them. I'm going to stay in touch, because I want to know how everybody is doing, how they are liking/despising the changes at work, and how their families are. I feel like I've been through so much with everyone else's lives while mine has stayed fairly the same.

So this is a big change, and I'm having to accept, adjust, maybe even mourn, but it's making me stronger. It's also evident to me how much stronger I am now than I was before. I mean, look at the decisions I've made! Look at the scary big changes I'm facing! I'm doing things that I've wanted to do but not had the balls to do for all of this time.

So it's a week of lasts. A few weeks of them, I guess, and then I'll be off to my new home. It's not like I can't come visit, and hopefully I find a job that allows me to be able to take the time to visit and to afford the trips. But right now I'm unsure of that, and unsure of the future. Turns out, though, that I don't mind as much as I thought. I can't take any doggies right now, but I'll try later when I've moved to my own place. All of this is making me anxious and nervous and scared. But not afraid to go. No. Just aware that the changes on the outside of me will bring changes to the inside of me.

I am also totally mystified by the people who think that I'm just going somewhere for awhile and I'll be back. As if this is the only place to settle down and live your life and raise a family. Quite frankly, I can't imagine doing that. Ick. Don't these people realize that if that was part of my plan, I would've already started down the track of doing that? I'm 29, if I wanted to get married and have kids and live here until I died, I would already have gotten married and probably popped out a few babies. I have been, for many years, basically treading water, waiting for my next big thing, and scared to do anything too wild or out there because I would surely sink. But you know what? I'm not just going to swim out of this fishbowl, hell no baby, I'm gonna fly! (well, drive, lol, really, but uh... oh you get my point!)

The Value of a Library Card

Having worked at public libraries as a clerk for nearly ten years now, I know something about the way people react when you tell them how much they have to pay for a library card if they live outside our tax district. I've heard people proclaim it a waste, I've literally heard people say "that's ridiculous! why would I pay that for a card at this library, it's not worth that!" right to our faces. And in my opinion, they couldn't sound more ignorant at that point. It's one thing if you just plain can't afford it, but if you just won't pay it because you're cheap, well, you don't need to insult the establishment and the hard working people in it just because you can.

#1: it's not our choice, these rules are set by a domino effect of people and committees and boards and such that then pass the numbers and percentages on to our head librarian who then has to set the price using a formula based on population/taxes/etc. Plus, if you listen to what we're explaining, you'll learn that the people living within our itemized tax district pay AS MUCH or MORE for a library card. It's the people paying for it and not using it that boggle me, but that's a whole other rant.

#2: YES it is worth it. You're wanting to come in here and take out who knows how much of our "merchandise" without laying down a cent? And you want us to trust you to bring it back? Just like that? New best sellers that cost $30+, DVDs that cost $15-$25+, computer software, out of print books, reference material, audiobooks that cost $45+. And we shouldn't charge you yearly dues? If you use the library to it's full potential, you are saving countless dollars. Now, if you want one book and that's it, go to Borders and get it for your damn self. When you have to go buy another book or two in a few months and it costs you thirty more bucks every time, just remember you refused to pay $80 for a library card because it cost too much. Flawed logic.

#3 Do you think these materials just show up out of thin air? We have to buy them. And the people working here, they need to get paid. And the upkeep on those materials that many many careless people ruin on a regular basis and the repair team has to try to salvage? Those supplies (and the initial book covering supplies and protective cases and the labels that make the books easier to find, and the shelves they are on....) cost a pretty penny. This place isn't running on smiles and sunshine, that's for sure.

#4 The library does more for the community than any bookstore ever will. Every time you lay money down for a library card, you are helping fund storytimes, summer reading programs, movie nights, adult enrichment classes, and many more activities. You are helping the entire community, and giving yourself the ability to utilise a wealth of materials and resources.

Now, call me crazy, but what part of all of this is so very not worth it?